Tuesday, August 4, 2009
I have been pretty much run ragged by all that has gone on. Just now we are starting too see the light at the end of the tunnel. Still all of this is not good, and will not get too much better. We have a visiting nurse coming, and I got oxygen for him. So all of this I hope will at least help with the comfort part. I try not to be negative about it all, but it is what it is and I can't do anything about it.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
My son came by and mowed the lawn. While he was doing that I replaced the broken window well cover. That is a first for me to do. I need to replace a washer in a facuet in the bathroom. At least I know too turn the water off before I start. Now all I have to do is get it apart without breaking it.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Next time will be three weeks from now. We will see how he does then. I think they plan too add some things too the next dosage of chemo. They are going slow and careful. Which I am glad they are doing.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Have to go too my younger son's doctor's appointment. Outside of that just trying to get my head in the right place.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
I have not gotten around too taking pictures this year of my garden. When I think of taking pictures it is the end of the day and I am ready for bed. Too dark to stumble out into the dark too take a few photo's. Maybe when things slow down a bit. So much too say and so little time.
Hope all are well.
Monday, June 8, 2009
I need to pick up the trash pile I made and put it in trash bags. So if I am bored. Which I am not. I have plenty of work to keep me busy and out of trouble.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
It is hot here today. So I will wait until the sun goes down some and do some more planting. I went through the drive thru at Steak & Shake and got us lunch. Jim ate it all which I am glad that he did. He really needs to eat more.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Went to check on the fish house and about 20 fish were floating on the surface. We ran fresh water into the ponds and we put to much in killing the fish. I dipped them out and now have to get rid of them. Jim told me these things happen. He wasn't mad at me. He even said something about buying some new fish. So it goes.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
My list of to do things is growing shorter. Tomorrow I have Sassy to take to the vet's for her annual shots and to be groomed. My younger son also has a doctor's appointment. That I need to be at. So another busy day. Jim is tired most of the time and spends most of his time sleeping or watching TV. He hates that he can not help me very much with all that needs to be done. I tell him not too worry. Little by little I will get it done. By the end of the summer I should be one tough old lady.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I have to go over and see Ted tomorrow. Then maybe I will get some yard work done. I need to mow the back yard. Jim is out on the front porch enjoying the late afternoon sun and fresh air. He likes to watch people slow down and look at his flowers. The roses are doing great this year.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
It is cool, damp and rainy here in KC.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
It is rainy here, but what one would call a lovely spring day. My flowers are all in bloom and I am happy. Jim says I have the best window view of the house here with my computer. He is right as I can see on first glance a bush full of pink roses out one window, and out the other more blooming flowers. Not much else to say.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Jim has two more radiation treatments. We see his cancer doctor Thrusday. Then maybe we will know what we are going to do. I am going to ask for a visiting nurse to come and check Jim our at least once or twice a week. The girl across the street said I could have my CNA in about eight weeks. I see that is maybe a good idea, but don't know how too fit classes in with everything else I have to do. That is something that I never thought about and if I did should have done it sometime ago. I have two years of college so I don't think it would be all that hard for me. Hope everyone is doing well.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I have been spending a lot of time out doors gardening. I have a lot of catching up to do, but it is starting to look a whole lot better. I also have been getting my house back in order. I still have some of my son's things, but he is suppose to come over and get them this weekend. So I should be able to put things in a better place. Hope all of you are doing well.
I am busy with doing yard work and I have lots to do in that area. The flowers are just beautiful this year. So I am out doors a lot. Hope every one is well and I can catch up on all you.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
My house guest will be gone in a day or two. I am really looking forward to it. My younger son is doing better and is going back home in the morning. So I am hoping by this time next week. Most of my problems well have gone away or at least be under control.
Yesterday was younger son's Birthday. I went to visit and took him his gifts which was mostly clothes. He is one who loves clothes. So for the moment he is happy.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
We are still trying to work things out for Jim. He is out at the VA trying to get the help he needs. I hope the person he is counting on does not let him down.
Monday, May 11, 2009
I am emotional and can't seem to get it under control. The smallest things now can send me into a tail spin. I keep finding my self clamping my mouth shut and taking deep breaths. I have no patients with others at this point. I handle things pretty well as long as you don't add on to what is already a difficult time. Just don't rock the boat, because I am likely to push you over board. Because it is me. I use my bad temper too keep me going. It is the way I am. Clear the decks because here I come. Get out of my way. I have a job to do.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
I saw him today and he is much better. We will see what needs to be done here in the next few days.
So what happens now? I have no idea.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
I do get some what cranky with things. Things will turn around I am sure. Than I can relax a bit.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Good thing that I got so much done yesterday morning. Today I am just tired as I had one of those nights of mine. I tripped and fell again the other day and I am feeling the effects. I just got too learn to pick up my feet. Then again the dog next door jumping up and growling right next too me. Might have had something to do with my falling down. He surprised me.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Need to get going the birds are screaming that they are hunger and need my attention. Could someone tell me how to keep them from pooping in their water. yuk. I hate cleaning the water dishes.
Monday, May 4, 2009
The young guy across the street came over and mowed the front lawn and bank for us. I was so relieved because that is a very steep bank. I have too keep telling myself one thing at a time. You can only do one thing at a time.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Jim has been coughing up blood. He was told that this is normal and that he wants to get that stuff out. So I am not as worried about the blood as I was before. He is tired but doing pretty good. We both think the chemo treatment will be the worst part and they are at least a couple of months down the road.
It is sunny here today and has brighten both our moods. Another good thing coming my way is an old friend is coming to visit soon. I look forward to seeing her and her husband.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
I spent yesterday buying plants and putting them into the ground. I am pretty pleased with the results. Now when I walk out the front door it looks really pretty. I could not for some reason resist pink flowers. LOL So I have pink geraniums, and impatients. I will try to get a picture taken with they really start to fill things out.
My son and his girlfriend are moving out the 15th of May. Which makes me happy. More room and privacy for Jim and myself.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Instead of going I have been feeding and caring for the birds and doing the usual house work. Also taking a bit of time to roam around here on the computer. I hope to get outside and do some work.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I did get to plant somethings Saturday and do some things out in the yard. I also ran over and took my younger son out for awhile. So I have been busy. I also have found all of the stuff to get the license plates for the truck. Now all I have to do is sit down and fill out the paper work.
Sunday I gave the two who live with me a lecture. They needed it as they were getting out of hand. Funny Jim got up and left it all too me. He said he would let me handle those two. LOL I hope I got somethings through too them. Not much else going. It is sunny and warm but windy. With gust of winds hitting 40 miles an hr. So that is keeping me from doing anything out side.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
He is determined to beat it. Do I think he can? Who knows? He has surpised me and the doctors more often than not. So we will see.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
With these things one never really knows what to expect. Each person is different and the outcome can be good or bad. He saw his mental health person today. She gave him a number for the suicide hot line. He was insulted that she would think that he would take his own life. He said why bother killing himself since they seem to be doing a pretty good job of it for him. He is bitter and I understand.
They are always suprised that I am still with him after so many years and all that has happen in our lives. Am I the only one who thinks marriage is till death do us part? Seems that way.
Monday, March 30, 2009
He is feeling pretty weak and tired most of the time. Which is the hard part for him. He wants to go and do things, but doesn't have the energy. My hard part is not getting too far ahead of myself and thinking the worst. I know a lot of things have been falling on my shoulders to get done.
One good thing is that the doctor said that Jim should be able to take care of most of his personal needs. Something that has been a worry. I sure can't lift him and move him around, but from what I am told. We are a long ways from him not being to care for himself.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
It is like the old soldier called back into combat once again. To relive the sights, the smells, the sounds and too feel the fear. All one can do is give comfort to the other, and try to keep things as normal as you can.
My fear is that I am not up too it and that I will fail. That my fears will drive me insane.
Monday, March 23, 2009
So I just have been keeping my mouth shut and trying to go about my business. While grinding my teeth. We will know more about Jim this Thursday. I am not looking forward too any of this at all. I really, really don't think Jim or any of the others have any idea what we are in for in the next few months.
I really don't want to do this, but I will. I have too stop thinking about it. Because it makes me sad and I already feel worn out. Got to get a handle on all of this stuff. It will be alright.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Thursday we go to seem his primary doctor and also to have some kind of scan. This scan is suppose to show where all of his cancer is suppose to be located. Jim told the nurse that he should really light up that scan. He is doing alright, and so am I. We pretty much have known for some time the things that we face. My thing is making sure they take care of the pain. Not taking care of the pain can really make me into one mean bitch.
Friday, March 13, 2009
We have been through these sort of things so much over the years. That we don't get too upset. I try not too think the worse and so does Jim. His way of thinking is, let's find out what it is and do something to make it better. So I go with his way of thinking.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Will let you know what happens.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
It is pretty darn cold here now and it looks like it is going to stay cold at least for this week. We did get some much needed rain this last week. Which makes me happy because it will help our garden this spring. I don't know about all of you, but I am ready to get out into the yard and start digging. We still need to get that tree out of our yard that fell down. Jim has done some cutting, but we need to load it up and get it gone.
So life is just rolling along. Didn't hurt my self too bad with this last fall. Just skinned my knee.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Damn I fell down again this morning. It had rain last night and I was hurrying down the drive way in my moccasins when my foot slipped out from under me. Now I have a nice big bruise on one of my knees. I swear I need a padded to suit to wear. I am ready for someone else to take over all of this falling down.
Not much else going on.
Monday, March 9, 2009
I want to call the insurance people and have one our trucks dropped to just liablity. It is eight years old and wrecked twice. So I don't think it is worth carring full coverage on it any more. Giving the car to my son and dropping coverage on the one truck will save me a bundle of money.
So on we go trying to get things done.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
The dogs were barking at something last night. Jim got up and said their was a dog in the yard next door. I put on my glasses to take a look and I don't know what it was, but I don't believe it was a dog. I have been seeing this rather furry creature ambling along the drive way at our house and down the street. I am not sure what animal it is suppose to be. I sure wasn't going out in the middle of the night too take a look. We thought maybe a wood chuck, coon, or something along that variety of animal. It is about the size of out dogs and has pointed ears. I kind of wondered if it was a kitty of the will kind. Because of the ears. I do believe I well leave it alone.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Tomorrow I have my younger son too see about. That will take me a couple of hours to do. Most of it will be driving him around to where he wants to go. Which means that I will be hurting by the time I get home. It hurts to drive the truck, but I will do what needs to be done.
Crazy strange dreams last night. I was trying to dig my way out of a mud slide most of the night. Jim said I was kicking like crazy. He is some what worn out this morning. I guess you could call that pay back for all of the nights he has kept me awake. So it goes.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Jim brought home another dog. Lord help us. Now we have three. He just could not let it go too an animal shelter. He found it at one of those rescue things. I swear I am going to forbid him from going to those places.
I feel worn out so I am making these entries short. Hope everyone is doing OK.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Jim and me have managed to get out and buy some new rose bushes to plant this spring. I haven't been out in the yard, but Jim says we have spring flowers coming up. In about another month we will once again see the beauty of spring.
I also haven't wanted to say a lot about how Jim is doing. All I can say is that with all of this illness. I have been really worried. It does look like now things have turned around for the better.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Roaming around streets with tall building is not my cup of coffee. I know that I would feel all closed in and ready for some ear plugs. Our downtown KC would no doubt fit inside of central park with room left to spare.
So I am waiting. Need to take photos of the plants Jim and I bought yesterday. Lovely is all I have to say about them.
Friday, February 6, 2009
I found a pretty interesting Internet site and so I have spent more time than I should looking people up. It is called Case net Mo. Want to know who is bad or good? Then you go here to take a look. So I am easy to amuse. Plus some people are not as nice as they seem.
Horrible thing. I found my own name on this site. I can tell you right now that it is not me. I truly did not know that another person had my first and last night. Mainly because my first name is pretty unusual. It kinda freaked me out to see my name. Who ever that person is that is using my name is not nice. May they get boils. Any ways not much else going on.
Monday, February 2, 2009
My niece in SC sent me this photo she took. She thought it would be fun for us too see a palm tree with snow. They got about enough to cover the ground.
Been busy getting things done. Should have more time later in the week. Hope all of you are doing well.
Friday, January 30, 2009
I need to put my track shoes on and get going. Hope all of you are having a great day.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
We have the wrecked truck back and fixed. Some how they forgot too put the front license plate back on. So I need to make a trip back up too the body shop to have it taken care of soon.
Our new person here at the old folks home is ajusting very well. Things are moving along on a postive note. The only down thing is that the old fart has not felt very well. He sees his cancer doctor today. We will see what we see.
I will try to see what other's are doing soon. Hope all is well with all of you.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
> 1. Toothpick -> to remind you to pick out the good qualities in others >
> 2. Rubber band -> to remind you to be flexible: things might not always work> out the way> you want, but it will work out. >
> 3. Band aid -> to remind you to heal hurt feelings, yours and someone> else's >
> 4. Pencil -> to remind you to list your blessings everyday >
> 5. Eraser -> to remind you that everyone makes mistakes, and it's OK> >
> 6. Chewing gum -> to remind you to stick with it and> you can accomplish anything >
> 7. Mint -> to remind you that you are worth a mint! >
> 8. Candy kiss -> to remind you that everyone needs a kiss or a hug every day> >
> 9. Tea bag -> to remind you to relax daily and go over your list of> blessings
Monday, January 19, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
We use the pass it on method of being paid back. If you meet someone who needs a helping hand and you can help. Then remember when you got help and help them.
It is warmer here in KC. Suppose to get up to the 60's. Makes me happy. Still need to get that chain saw.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I certainly know what it is too be cold, sick and hungry. I worry for all of the people who have lost everything because of others greed. I agree with Bobby I don't think it is going to get better for some time.
We didn't need to worry so much about the enemies outside our country. We had plenty who were doing us in right here at home. How sick.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Everyone knows some one who is toxic and you just have to learn to get away from them. My family is a good example of those who just can't seem to live life. They have to make something happen all of the time. So for years I have stayed away from certain ones and it is a good thing that I did. Because of all of the other things that just come your way that you have to handle. Why put up with others who love to create problems. I always wondered why, and my son say because they could cause problems. Makes no since to me, but then I am not them.
Just a few thoughts on a very cold day.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
I have too got see about a chain saw. That I can use to cut up the tree that was blown down in the back yard. I want one that I can use because I really don't think Jim is up to cutting that tree up. At least it fell in our yard and not into our neighbors which is good.
My son got his third class which he has been worrying about for the last few weeks. So that is one more thing taken care of around here at the old folks home. So we are rolling along and I feel like I can breath once again.
Hope you all are having a great day. Roz
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
The claims adjuster is suppose to come sometime today. I may have too argue with Jim over getting it fixed. No one is driving this thing until I have it fixed. The brakes are going to be replaced come hell or high water.
I have issues with the son and husband over these kind of things. So I am grinding my teeth and determined to get things done my way. Which is the right way.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
So now I have to have it fixed. This is the same truck that some guy rear ended me and blew out all of the shocks. This is also the truck we just put new tires on. This all gives me a headache. If I had a junker no one would hit it. Oh well, and how was your day?
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Can't you just smell the bacon? Yum. Can't you just taste the strawberries? Yum. Are you hungry yet?
You all have a great day. Visit mommy Roz's dinner table any time.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
I do have to laugh at how slow I can be when it comes to do these things. I still plan on keeping the other journal. I think this will be a good way for me to learn.
Believe it or not in some ways this has been fun. Like a treasure hunt of sorts. Only the treasure is all of you.
So how does a person stay married 45 years? First off you just get up every day and live life. You learn too take the good with the bad and enjoy the good, and make the bad go away. So here I am after all of these years. With two boys, and a man who tells me just about every day that he loves me. I don't have a clue as too why he does, but he keeps showing up at the dinner table everyday. So I guess I might as well keep him. I haven't run into any other men I want too keep around. So I guess that is how you stay married.
Friday, January 2, 2009
I plan to watch a couple of movies that I rented and make chile tonight. Outside of that I am simply trying to rest up after all of the holidays. Plus just getting through everyone's ill health etc. Seems like the holidays bring that stuff on.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Yes she has our hearts just like Sassy. We just could not help falling in love with her.