Tuesday, March 24, 2009


So it is as if the years between those days when my mother laying dying have never been. All of the pain and emotions come rushing back to me. Those feelings that were kept at bay just under the surface for so many years.

It is like the old soldier called back into combat once again. To relive the sights, the smells, the sounds and too feel the fear. All one can do is give comfort to the other, and try to keep things as normal as you can.

My fear is that I am not up too it and that I will fail. That my fears will drive me insane.



Fijufic said...

I pray for you to have strength Roz...I also pray for mercy.

I know it is bad for you.


becomingkate said...

I don't think you'll fail, Roz. You've been caring for your family all this time, even through some major down times. Your love is what will help you.
I asked my friends at widownet to recommend a caregivers site and they said they highly recommended wellspouse for it's support and information.
I'm keeping both you and Jim in my thoughts and prayers.

Dorrie said...

I pray that you will continue to be strong. {hugs}

Cherished Memories said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Jim! (((hugs)))!!