Been posting else where.

I haven't been here for awhile. I have been posting at KClive connect. Not sure how to direct you to that place. It has been busy this last month with Jim and his cancer treatments. We are not doing the intervenous cancer treatments any more. They were just to hard on Jim. So we are doing a pill form that won't cure, but we hope will keep things in check and keep it from spreading.

I have been pretty much run ragged by all that has gone on. Just now we are starting too see the light at the end of the tunnel. Still all of this is not good, and will not get too much better. We have a visiting nurse coming, and I got oxygen for him. So all of this I hope will at least help with the comfort part. I try not to be negative about it all, but it is what it is and I can't do anything about it.

Roz

Sleepless nights.

Sometimes I get a thought in my head and have a hard time getting it out. Jim doesn't always tell me things I need to know. Like how far behind he got on so many things. He alwasy discouraged me from doing any of the work around here and in the yard. Now I am playing catch up. I have worried a lot about the fish ponds and what I am suppose to do about them. Fill them in, or try to keep them going. We lost more fish the last week because I don't know what I am doing. Because can't take care of the ponds like he did. So I have been worring about them. Until last night I nailed him with my concerns. Seems like he has things worked out with the young guy across the street . Who came over and fixed things yesterday. It would be nice if he would just let me know what he is thinking. I am on too him too let me know what he wants. Just let me know. So I can take care of things.

Roz

Sunday

The fourth is over and I can't say that I am sorry. I don't know what that was that someone was blowing up, but I would say it was pretty big. Jim was sick this morning for the first time. He hates to throw up and somehow managed not too. I gave him one of the pills that is suppose to help him with the throwing up.

My son came by and mowed the lawn. While he was doing that I replaced the broken window well cover. That is a first for me to do. I need to replace a washer in a facuet in the bathroom. At least I know too turn the water off before I start. Now all I have to do is get it apart without breaking it.

Roz

Slow too post.

I have been slow to post much of anything. Life keeps me busy right now. Yet here is an update on Jim. Jim did his chemo treatment yesterday. I was some what surprised (shouldn't be) that he is doing so well. Maybe it is because it is the first one. The only problem seems to be the steroids that he must take. They make him feel shaky and nervous. I think part of the trouble was not knowing how things would go. I am glad that he is able to eat and not throw it up.

Next time will be three weeks from now. We will see how he does then. I think they plan too add some things too the next dosage of chemo. They are going slow and careful. Which I am glad they are doing.

Roz

Jim

Jim and me are both tired today. We spent the afternoon out at the VA. The lung cancer tumor has gotten smaller, but still is there. So come next Wednesday. Jim will start Chemo. I know sort of what we face, but on the other hand. Living it is another thing. So we will see how the two of us hold up.

Have to go too my younger son's doctor's appointment. Outside of that just trying to get my head in the right place.

Roz

More flowers

More photos

Down the stairs.

This is what I have been doing.

I have finally gotten out and taken some photos.

I hope you enjoy them.

Roz

Short note

Life has been pretty busy for me. I have most of the yard cleaned up and looking good. The two sheds cleaned out and the basement is coming along. Between all of that work. I have been running Jim back and forth too the VA. He doesn't like to drive much now days. So more of my time is spent driving him around.

I have not gotten around too taking pictures this year of my garden. When I think of taking pictures it is the end of the day and I am ready for bed. Too dark to stumble out into the dark too take a few photo's. Maybe when things slow down a bit. So much too say and so little time.
Hope all are well.

Roz

Cool today.

It is cool here today. So I am trying to decide what I want too do. I thought about cleaning out the shed which really needs to be cleaned out. Can't find anything in the mess it is in right now. I need to decide about the rose bush I bought. Do I dig up a plant that is there and replace it with the new rose plant. I want the rose to climb over a gate that I just put in. It arches over the walk and would look really pretty with the red rose climbing over it.

I need to pick up the trash pile I made and put it in trash bags. So if I am bored. Which I am not. I have plenty of work to keep me busy and out of trouble.

Roz

Can't stay out of the dirt and mud.

Jim was starting to feel house bound. So I took him over too Family Tree. I bought a climbling rose bush red, and several other plants. I also go an idea for a water feature. Sooo, I brought up a small tub that had been down by the big pond and filled it full of water plants. Don't worry about those nasty bugs that bit. I put some dunk under a rock in the water. I had to do that because our lovely lady pups keep taking them out of the ponds. They don't eat them. They just don't like them in the pond.

It is hot here today. So I will wait until the sun goes down some and do some more planting. I went through the drive thru at Steak & Shake and got us lunch. Jim ate it all which I am glad that he did. He really needs to eat more.

Roz

Ordered to rest.

Jim says I am too do nothing today. He thinks that I have put in too hard a couple of weeks. Me will it doesn't hurt to toughen up. I am resting today as much as I can. The younger son has family day at the group home. I went over for awhile taking him to the dollar store, and then eating lunch with him. I also folded up his laundry and put it away for him. So we got too spend sometime together.

Went to check on the fish house and about 20 fish were floating on the surface. We ran fresh water into the ponds and we put to much in killing the fish. I dipped them out and now have to get rid of them. Jim told me these things happen. He wasn't mad at me. He even said something about buying some new fish. So it goes.

Roz

Getting it done.

It has been a tough few months. With Jim and all of the work that needed to be done around here at home. My brother-in-law came down Sat. and cut up the tree that had fallen down in the back yard. He also cut down the dead tree in the front yard and took most of it away. The young guy across the street has come over and helped me also and fixed the pole down at the big pond. So I am getting things done with the kind help of others.

My list of to do things is growing shorter. Tomorrow I have Sassy to take to the vet's for her annual shots and to be groomed. My younger son also has a doctor's appointment. That I need to be at. So another busy day. Jim is tired most of the time and spends most of his time sleeping or watching TV. He hates that he can not help me very much with all that needs to be done. I tell him not too worry. Little by little I will get it done. By the end of the summer I should be one tough old lady.
Roz

VA day

We spent most of the afternoon at the VA. Jim saw his prostrate cancer doctor. Looks like things are going good with that one. Now to see about the big one and how it is doing. I am tired and have rented three movies. I am going to just zone out and watch someone else act crazy, fall in love, and shot people. LOL Nothing like a good movie to get your mind off of things.

I have to go over and see Ted tomorrow. Then maybe I will get some yard work done. I need to mow the back yard. Jim is out on the front porch enjoying the late afternoon sun and fresh air. He likes to watch people slow down and look at his flowers. The roses are doing great this year.

Roz

Radiation Treatments done.

Jim did his last radiation treatment today. They gave him a Certificate for completing the treatments. The doctor still can't get over how Jim has surivored all of his cancers. The blood cancer should have killed him years ago. Maybe he won't have too do the chem-o for the lung cancer. I hope that he doesn't because he needs to do treatments for the blood cancer. We will see what happens now.

It is cool, damp and rainy here in KC.

Roz

Holiday over.

Another Memorial Day weekend over for another year. We didn't do much as Jim really didn't feel very well. He took his catheter out and had a hard time peeing. So we had to go too the ER last night and have one put back in for him. That took a couple of hours, but he was able too sleep most of the night. Plus my bonous was that I also got to sleep. Two more radiation treatments then on too other treatments.

It is rainy here, but what one would call a lovely spring day. My flowers are all in bloom and I am happy. Jim says I have the best window view of the house here with my computer. He is right as I can see on first glance a bush full of pink roses out one window, and out the other more blooming flowers. Not much else to say.

Roz

Resting today.

I am sore all over today. This last week I have been working to get the yard back in shape. Plus do the usual running that needs to be done. I feel like I am starting to get things back in order, but I still have a ways to go.
Jim has two more radiation treatments. We see his cancer doctor Thrusday. Then maybe we will know what we are going to do. I am going to ask for a visiting nurse to come and check Jim our at least once or twice a week. The girl across the street said I could have my CNA in about eight weeks. I see that is maybe a good idea, but don't know how too fit classes in with everything else I have to do. That is something that I never thought about and if I did should have done it sometime ago. I have two years of college so I don't think it would be all that hard for me. Hope everyone is doing well.

Roz

New Computer

I just got my new computer this morning. So I am back on line. My son and his girlfriend have moved out. Jim is doing better, and my younger son is back at the home. Everything is going much better.

I have been spending a lot of time out doors gardening. I have a lot of catching up to do, but it is starting to look a whole lot better. I also have been getting my house back in order. I still have some of my son's things, but he is suppose to come over and get them this weekend. So I should be able to put things in a better place. Hope all of you are doing well.

Roz

Back online

I got my new computer today. Finally I am back on line. Just a short update. My older son and his girlfriend are now moved out. Jim is doing pretty well on his treatments. The doctor is surprised at how well he is doing.

I am busy with doing yard work and I have lots to do in that area. The flowers are just beautiful this year. So I am out doors a lot. Hope every one is well and I can catch up on all you.

Roz

Bags

The one thing Jim didn't want was a bag on his leg, but somethings you can't do anything about. So yesterday they gave him one and for the first time in weeks he slept all night. No more get out of my way bathroom trips. Plus I do think he is feeling better and less pain.

My house guest will be gone in a day or two. I am really looking forward to it. My younger son is doing better and is going back home in the morning. So I am hoping by this time next week. Most of my problems well have gone away or at least be under control.

Yesterday was younger son's Birthday. I went to visit and took him his gifts which was mostly clothes. He is one who loves clothes. So for the moment he is happy.

Roz

Grinding my Teeth.

I ordered a new computer yesterday. It should be here at the end of the month. Which means because my son is taking his computer. I will be without one for a week or so. That is alright as I am eager for them too get all of this stuff out of my house. From the plans I have heard it sounds slow. I am trying to resist the urge to start throwing things into the street. I want my house back really bad. You know the old saying about company smelling after three days.

We are still trying to work things out for Jim. He is out at the VA trying to get the help he needs. I hope the person he is counting on does not let him down.

Roz

Emotions and other things.

Folks it has been a very hard week. Jim is now back home, but with all of the stuff going on. I am tired. The older son is too move this weekend. The younger son is going back to the group home Wednesday. Everyone is moving along and maybe going to do better.

I am emotional and can't seem to get it under control. The smallest things now can send me into a tail spin. I keep finding my self clamping my mouth shut and taking deep breaths. I have no patients with others at this point. I handle things pretty well as long as you don't add on to what is already a difficult time. Just don't rock the boat, because I am likely to push you over board. Because it is me. I use my bad temper too keep me going. It is the way I am. Clear the decks because here I come. Get out of my way. I have a job to do.

Roz

Mother's Day

Jim is back home and that is good for a lot of reasons. I hope all of the mother's out there are having a great Mother's Day.

Roz

Jim update.

I called the patient advocate this morning and told her that I did not appreciate the way I was treated yesterday. I understand the ER not wanting to have interfering family. That is not my job. My job is to inform them of the medications that I might have just given him and what I have observed. When anyone is in pain they often are not able to explain things very well. I know Jim better than anyone. My job is to inform, support, calm him, and too understand what needs to be done. I do not appreciate some nurse asking him if he wants me there, after he has asked for me several times. I didn't know that he had asked for me. So I came home knowing nothing and wondering what the hell was going on. Too many of these guys have no one. Stop running the wives off who are welling to help.

I saw him today and he is much better. We will see what needs to be done here in the next few days.
Roz

Jim

Jim came home from his radiation treatsments yesterday in a lot of pain. So much pain that we made our way out too the ER at the VA. He is now in the Intensive care unit. He insisted that I go home to rest last night. I sure didn't get much rest as sleep was not going to come. I called this morning and they told me that his pain is under control. I didn't get to speak too him, but they said they would tell him I called.

So what happens now? I have no idea.

Roz

Younger son.

As if my life is not crazy enough. My younger son called this morning sounding more strange than usual. He is the one with a mental illness. I thought things were not going right so I called the home he is living in. They were already calling the doctor and trying to find out what to do about him. He also started to say things about killing himself. So now he is over at the ER being evaluated. This could mean a stay in the hospital until we can get him back on the right track. Thank God I have these people working with my son. They have taken a lot off of my shoulders by doing the right things for him. We will see what happens at the end of the day.

I do get some what cranky with things. Things will turn around I am sure. Than I can relax a bit.

Roz

The VA

We spent most of the afternoon at the VA yesterday. Jim's blood pressure was way too low. He was told by the doctor at Reserch that it could be the medication he is taking for the prostrate. Needless to say we spent a lot of hours not getting anything done. They did say they would try to send us a new blood pressure cuff. The one we have keeps showing error error on it and I have changed the batteries. It still doesn't work right.

Good thing that I got so much done yesterday morning. Today I am just tired as I had one of those nights of mine. I tripped and fell again the other day and I am feeling the effects. I just got too learn to pick up my feet. Then again the dog next door jumping up and growling right next too me. Might have had something to do with my falling down. He surprised me.

Roz

Better today.

I have decided to get over my mad about things and just get on with things. It takes me awhile sometimes to adjust to new circumstances. Poor Jim listens to me and tries to make me slow down and take one thing at a time. The doctors are surprised that he has done so well with all of these different illness. They just don't understand why he isn't dead yet. I know, but most people wouldn't understand. He is a determind soul. He stays for me.

Need to get going the birds are screaming that they are hunger and need my attention. Could someone tell me how to keep them from pooping in their water. yuk. I hate cleaning the water dishes.

Roz

Snowed under.

I feel over whelmed by all that I have to get done. I also am pretty sore from trying to get things done. When you are my age cleaning gutters, planting flowers, cleaning the house and all of the other things one must get done is hard. I now realize just how much Jim did and trying to do both our jobs is hard. He is trying to do more too help. Which fills me full of guilt for not being able to take care of all of these things. I would pay someone to do some of this stuff, but Jim has his pride. So here I am.

The young guy across the street came over and mowed the front lawn and bank for us. I was so relieved because that is a very steep bank. I have too keep telling myself one thing at a time. You can only do one thing at a time.

Roz

It is going to happen.

My son and his girlfriend are finally moving out. I can hardly wait too have my home back. One more burden off my shoulders. I am very excited about their leaving.

Jim has been coughing up blood. He was told that this is normal and that he wants to get that stuff out. So I am not as worried about the blood as I was before. He is tired but doing pretty good. We both think the chemo treatment will be the worst part and they are at least a couple of months down the road.

It is sunny here today and has brighten both our moods. Another good thing coming my way is an old friend is coming to visit soon. I look forward to seeing her and her husband.

Roz

A week or more.

I have been busy as you can well guess. Jim is pretty tired from a week of treatments. He has the weekend off from them. As for me I am trying to keep everything going. Doing all of his stuff and all of my stuff. Which keeps me pretty busy now that spring is here once again.

I spent yesterday buying plants and putting them into the ground. I am pretty pleased with the results. Now when I walk out the front door it looks really pretty. I could not for some reason resist pink flowers. LOL So I have pink geraniums, and impatients. I will try to get a picture taken with they really start to fill things out.

My son and his girlfriend are moving out the 15th of May. Which makes me happy. More room and privacy for Jim and myself.

Roz

Tuesday

Jim is off having his treatment. He wanted to just go by himself, and even though I was some what worried about that. I stayed here at home. I know it is important for him to be in charge of all of this medical thing. I will of course be here if he needs me. He has the cell phone and only needs to call me. I am sure that as time passes that I may have to be more pro-active, but for now it is important for him to feel like he has some control over things.

Instead of going I have been feeding and caring for the birds and doing the usual house work. Also taking a bit of time to roam around here on the computer. I hope to get outside and do some work.

Roz

Monday

I have been trying to get the house cleaned up. Jim will be starting his treatments tomorrow. So I don't want to be worrying about things being a mess here at home.

I did get to plant somethings Saturday and do some things out in the yard. I also ran over and took my younger son out for awhile. So I have been busy. I also have found all of the stuff to get the license plates for the truck. Now all I have to do is sit down and fill out the paper work.

Sunday I gave the two who live with me a lecture. They needed it as they were getting out of hand. Funny Jim got up and left it all too me. He said he would let me handle those two. LOL I hope I got somethings through too them. Not much else going. It is sunny and warm but windy. With gust of winds hitting 40 miles an hr. So that is keeping me from doing anything out side.

Roz

So it goes.

We saw a lung specialist today at the VA. He showed us the pictures of the lung cancer. It is about three inches across and is blocking part of Jim's airway. It also has collasped part of his lung. We will do radiation first and then a couple of weeks after that when we are done with the radiation. We will do the chemo. They don't think that Jim can hold up too both at the same time. Bad news is that we found out this is stage 3. For those who don't know cancer goes from stage 1 to stage 4. The higher the number the worst it is suppose to be. Not good.

He is determined to beat it. Do I think he can? Who knows? He has surpised me and the doctors more often than not. So we will see.

Roz

What too say?

Can't think of much that I care to write about. Jim is too see the doctor Friday. We know that radiation is going to be one treatment, and some chemo. I will of course go with him too this doctor and learn what I need too learn.

With these things one never really knows what to expect. Each person is different and the outcome can be good or bad. He saw his mental health person today. She gave him a number for the suicide hot line. He was insulted that she would think that he would take his own life. He said why bother killing himself since they seem to be doing a pretty good job of it for him. He is bitter and I understand.

They are always suprised that I am still with him after so many years and all that has happen in our lives. Am I the only one who thinks marriage is till death do us part? Seems that way.
Roz

Getting head on straight.

I have been trying to get my head in the right place again. Sometimes I can get pretty messed up. It looks like we have a few things to think about with Jim's treatments etc. He has not given up yet.

He is feeling pretty weak and tired most of the time. Which is the hard part for him. He wants to go and do things, but doesn't have the energy. My hard part is not getting too far ahead of myself and thinking the worst. I know a lot of things have been falling on my shoulders to get done.

One good thing is that the doctor said that Jim should be able to take care of most of his personal needs. Something that has been a worry. I sure can't lift him and move him around, but from what I am told. We are a long ways from him not being to care for himself.
Roz

Nightmare

So it is as if the years between those days when my mother laying dying have never been. All of the pain and emotions come rushing back to me. Those feelings that were kept at bay just under the surface for so many years.

It is like the old soldier called back into combat once again. To relive the sights, the smells, the sounds and too feel the fear. All one can do is give comfort to the other, and try to keep things as normal as you can.

My fear is that I am not up too it and that I will fail. That my fears will drive me insane.

Roz

Grinding my teeth.

Not much to up date about, and most of what I have been thinking and doing doesn't need to be repeated. One of those days when going out in the backyard and cutting off a switch for a couple of people sounds real good to me.

So I just have been keeping my mouth shut and trying to go about my business. While grinding my teeth. We will know more about Jim this Thursday. I am not looking forward too any of this at all. I really, really don't think Jim or any of the others have any idea what we are in for in the next few months.

I really don't want to do this, but I will. I have too stop thinking about it. Because it makes me sad and I already feel worn out. Got to get a handle on all of this stuff. It will be alright.

Roz

We know now.

Jim does have lung cancer. We will not know what we will do until we talk with his cancer doctor. I am not very hopeful about the out come. Yet I have been wrong before.
Roz

Not 100% sure, but.

We spent most of the day at the VA. The doctor came out and told me that Jim has a mass in his lung. It bleed a lot and he did take samples, but it does look like it is going to be lung cancer. It is not something that we didn't expect. Since he already has two kinds of cancer. The doctor said we needed to find out what kind it is before we decide on a treatment plan.

Thursday we go to seem his primary doctor and also to have some kind of scan. This scan is suppose to show where all of his cancer is suppose to be located. Jim told the nurse that he should really light up that scan. He is doing alright, and so am I. We pretty much have known for some time the things that we face. My thing is making sure they take care of the pain. Not taking care of the pain can really make me into one mean bitch.

Roz

Jim's Health part two.

We made our way down to the VA at the crack of dawn. It was pretty much of a review of medical history and deciding what should be done next. The next thing to do is that we will go Tuesday and they will put a scope down his throat to have a look see and maybe if it is something that looks bad. They will take a sample. If they do that it will be about 5 days before we know the results. Don't know anything on the kidneys yet or what is planned. All a wait and see game.

We have been through these sort of things so much over the years. That we don't get too upset. I try not too think the worse and so does Jim. His way of thinking is, let's find out what it is and do something to make it better. So I go with his way of thinking.

Roz

Jim's health.

I am filled with sadness today. Jim's doctor called yesterday and said that he had a spot on his lung and a few spots on each kidney. We are hoping for the best. That the spot on his lung is just an infection and that the other spots are nothing to worry about. Yet I am worried. Tomorrow we go to have it checked out. I am hoping for good news. At least we know why Jim has felt so tired these last few months.

Will let you know what happens.

Roz

Spring where are you?

I have not fallen down once today and it is almost noon. I need to pay attention to what I am doing. I get so distracted with other things. Jim was up at the crack of dawn to go to the VA. They wanted to do a cat scan this morning. So that is out of the way and he is back home.

It is pretty darn cold here now and it looks like it is going to stay cold at least for this week. We did get some much needed rain this last week. Which makes me happy because it will help our garden this spring. I don't know about all of you, but I am ready to get out into the yard and start digging. We still need to get that tree out of our yard that fell down. Jim has done some cutting, but we need to load it up and get it gone.

So life is just rolling along. Didn't hurt my self too bad with this last fall. Just skinned my knee.
Roz

Jim's Birthday

Today is Jim's Birthday. His present is the dog he brought home a couple of weeks ago. I did bake him a spice cake with cream icing and made him a nice supper. He is happy and full. So that was easy to take care of.

Damn I fell down again this morning. It had rain last night and I was hurrying down the drive way in my moccasins when my foot slipped out from under me. Now I have a nice big bruise on one of my knees. I swear I need a padded to suit to wear. I am ready for someone else to take over all of this falling down.

Not much else going on.

Roz

Gifts and other things

I think that I am finally getting caught up on things. I am giving my son my car, and so I had to find out how to gift him the car. It turned out to be a lot easier than I thought. If I give it too him as a gift he does not have to pay sells tax.

I want to call the insurance people and have one our trucks dropped to just liablity. It is eight years old and wrecked twice. So I don't think it is worth carring full coverage on it any more. Giving the car to my son and dropping coverage on the one truck will save me a bundle of money.

So on we go trying to get things done.

Roz

Healing and wild things.

The butt is better the visit with my son went well. Spring flowers are beginning to poke through the ground. So I would say in about a month things will be in bloom.

The dogs were barking at something last night. Jim got up and said their was a dog in the yard next door. I put on my glasses to take a look and I don't know what it was, but I don't believe it was a dog. I have been seeing this rather furry creature ambling along the drive way at our house and down the street. I am not sure what animal it is suppose to be. I sure wasn't going out in the middle of the night too take a look. We thought maybe a wood chuck, coon, or something along that variety of animal. It is about the size of out dogs and has pointed ears. I kind of wondered if it was a kitty of the will kind. Because of the ears. I do believe I well leave it alone.

Roz

Crazy days and nights.

It has been another crazy first week of the month for me. Bills to pay things to stock up on etc. I got most if not all of it done yesterday. I got a couple of days behind because of the butt fall. Now I am caught up and I have decided to relax for today.

Tomorrow I have my younger son too see about. That will take me a couple of hours to do. Most of it will be driving him around to where he wants to go. Which means that I will be hurting by the time I get home. It hurts to drive the truck, but I will do what needs to be done.

Crazy strange dreams last night. I was trying to dig my way out of a mud slide most of the night. Jim said I was kicking like crazy. He is some what worn out this morning. I guess you could call that pay back for all of the nights he has kept me awake. So it goes.

Roz

Bruised my butt.

No I have not left the world of the living. I have been crazy busy with stuff. Family etc. etc. etc. Plus I fell Friday and bruised my butt big time. It has given some trouble just getting dressed and moving around. So I have not been feeling too chipper these last few weeks. With my being sick and everyone else being sick. Maybe we will get over all of this stuff soon.

Jim brought home another dog. Lord help us. Now we have three. He just could not let it go too an animal shelter. He found it at one of those rescue things. I swear I am going to forbid him from going to those places.

I feel worn out so I am making these entries short. Hope everyone is doing OK.

Roz

Been sick

I have not wanted to write here in the last few weeks. All of us have been sick. So most of my time has been spent trying to recover. Plus doing all of the other stuff that one needs to get done. So by the time I get a chance to use the computer others are busy with their thing. So much for writing or doing an update.

Jim and me have managed to get out and buy some new rose bushes to plant this spring. I haven't been out in the yard, but Jim says we have spring flowers coming up. In about another month we will once again see the beauty of spring.

I also haven't wanted to say a lot about how Jim is doing. All I can say is that with all of this illness. I have been really worried. It does look like now things have turned around for the better.
Roz

Our Orchids

Jim bought another orchid today. They are so yummy looking. You just want too eat them.

Roz

My Valentine Present from Jim.

This is my present a pretty pink orchid. I have it setting on my kitchen sink. So that I can look at it when I am in the kitchen. We also got two African Violet's that are really pretty.

Roz

Jim's Valentine Present from me.

We went shopping yesterday, and I got this orchid for Jim.

Roz

Sunday

I am up not that I wanted to get up this early, but my older son called from NYC. He will be back among the common folk tonight. I am awaiting too hear all about his trip and see his photos. My take on the whole NYC trip is, I am glad I didn't have too go.

Roaming around streets with tall building is not my cup of coffee. I know that I would feel all closed in and ready for some ear plugs. Our downtown KC would no doubt fit inside of central park with room left to spare.

So I am waiting. Need to take photos of the plants Jim and I bought yesterday. Lovely is all I have to say about them.

Roz

Live gets busy.

I have been pretty darn busy the last few days or is it the last week. I should have some quiet time now that the son and girlfriend have flown away. They left for NYC early this morning, and called about 10:30 AM to tell me they had made it safe and sound.

I found a pretty interesting Internet site and so I have spent more time than I should looking people up. It is called Case net Mo. Want to know who is bad or good? Then you go here to take a look. So I am easy to amuse. Plus some people are not as nice as they seem.

Horrible thing. I found my own name on this site. I can tell you right now that it is not me. I truly did not know that another person had my first and last night. Mainly because my first name is pretty unusual. It kinda freaked me out to see my name. Who ever that person is that is using my name is not nice. May they get boils. Any ways not much else going on.
Roz

Palm tree with snow.

My niece in SC sent me this photo she took. She thought it would be fun for us too see a palm tree with snow. They got about enough to cover the ground.

Been busy getting things done. Should have more time later in the week. Hope all of you are doing well.

Roz

Not much time.

In a few minutes I have to be out the door. It is doctor time for my younger son. Plus it is the end of the month and the beginning of the new month. Which means I have lots too do the next couple of days.

I need to put my track shoes on and get going. Hope all of you are having a great day.
Roz

Lost in life.

It has been busy here at the old folks home. So busy with trying to take care of a few things that I have some how managed to be gone for awhile. Life can take up a lot of your time.

We have the wrecked truck back and fixed. Some how they forgot too put the front license plate back on. So I need to make a trip back up too the body shop to have it taken care of soon.

Our new person here at the old folks home is ajusting very well. Things are moving along on a postive note. The only down thing is that the old fart has not felt very well. He sees his cancer doctor today. We will see what we see.

I will try to see what other's are doing soon. Hope all is well with all of you.
Roz

Daily Survival Kit

> Daily Survival Kit> Toothpick, Rubber band, Band aid, Pencil, Eraser, Chewing> gum, Mint,> Candy kiss, Tea bag >
> 1. Toothpick -> to remind you to pick out the good qualities in others >
> 2. Rubber band -> to remind you to be flexible: things might not always work> out the way> you want, but it will work out. >
> 3. Band aid -> to remind you to heal hurt feelings, yours and someone> else's >
> 4. Pencil -> to remind you to list your blessings everyday >
> 5. Eraser -> to remind you that everyone makes mistakes, and it's OK> >
> 6. Chewing gum -> to remind you to stick with it and> you can accomplish anything >
> 7. Mint -> to remind you that you are worth a mint! >
> 8. Candy kiss -> to remind you that everyone needs a kiss or a hug every day> >
> 9. Tea bag -> to remind you to relax daily and go over your list of> blessings

Roz

Jim & Me

Jim's brother John took this picture the other day. We were married 45 years ago Jan 5th in front of this organ. It sat in my parents living room.

Roz

Getting settled.

I won't say too much about this, but we have an extra person living at our house. She ran into some bad luck. So we are trying to get her back on her feet. Life comes at you hard sometimes. When it does you just need a little helping hand.

We use the pass it on method of being paid back. If you meet someone who needs a helping hand and you can help. Then remember when you got help and help them.

It is warmer here in KC. Suppose to get up to the 60's. Makes me happy. Still need to get that chain saw.

Roz

Try

I can only try to make things better for some others that I know. At least I can offer a warm house, bed and food. Times are really tough for some, and it makes you all the more grateful that you have what you have in this world.

I certainly know what it is too be cold, sick and hungry. I worry for all of the people who have lost everything because of others greed. I agree with Bobby I don't think it is going to get better for some time.

We didn't need to worry so much about the enemies outside our country. We had plenty who were doing us in right here at home. How sick.

Roz

Poinsettia

This is that big poinsettia that I had up stairs. As you can see it is doing just fine among the rose bushes. I have several more of the poinsettias in the basement.

Roz

Orchid

This is the orchid that is growing in our basement. The plant behind is a big leaf philodendron. It is a plant that we keep outdoors in the warmer weather. It does get pretty big so we put it down in the basement during the winter months.

Roz

Life

Life can come at you hard at times. If anyone thinks my life is boring think again. I don't say to much about it. That is the private part of me that really doesn't like to share. I do know one thing that my life is a lot easier since I got rid of some people.

Everyone knows some one who is toxic and you just have to learn to get away from them. My family is a good example of those who just can't seem to live life. They have to make something happen all of the time. So for years I have stayed away from certain ones and it is a good thing that I did. Because of all of the other things that just come your way that you have to handle. Why put up with others who love to create problems. I always wondered why, and my son say because they could cause problems. Makes no since to me, but then I am not them.

Just a few thoughts on a very cold day.
Roz

Moods

Ok I am in one of those moods of mine. It is colder than a well diggers ass here in KC today. So all I want to do is go back too bed and wait it out.

See you all later.

Roz

Truck

We took the truck up too the body shop this morning. So that is on it's way to be taken care of and out of my hair. I am getting things pretty much back to normal around here at the old folks home.

I have too got see about a chain saw. That I can use to cut up the tree that was blown down in the back yard. I want one that I can use because I really don't think Jim is up to cutting that tree up. At least it fell in our yard and not into our neighbors which is good.

My son got his third class which he has been worrying about for the last few weeks. So that is one more thing taken care of around here at the old folks home. So we are rolling along and I feel like I can breath once again.

Hope you all are having a great day. Roz

We don't grow that.

I was thinking some people would grow that weed in their basement. Jim and me we grow roses. This is from the rose tree that we didn't get planted this fall. It is doing pretty good. Some of our other rose are blooming too and it looks like the white orchid is also getting ready to bloom.

I am taking the truck in Monday. We will see how that all that works out. Today I am not doing anything that takes any kind of brain power.

Roz

Truck wreck.

This is the yellow truck that my son wreck. Most of the damage is too the grill, hood, and bumper.
The claims adjuster is suppose to come sometime today. I may have too argue with Jim over getting it fixed. No one is driving this thing until I have it fixed. The brakes are going to be replaced come hell or high water.

I have issues with the son and husband over these kind of things. So I am grinding my teeth and determined to get things done my way. Which is the right way.
Roz

Crash

I have not taken a picture of it, but while I was trying to make an entry here. My son called and said I have some bad news. He wrecked one of the trucks. At least he was able to get it back home and we switched out putting him in the car.

So now I have to have it fixed. This is the same truck that some guy rear ended me and blew out all of the shocks. This is also the truck we just put new tires on. This all gives me a headache. If I had a junker no one would hit it. Oh well, and how was your day?

Roz

Welcome

I didn't cook all of this Jim cooked part of it. After all of these years if I can get out of cooking I do. Sometimes I do get in the mood and cook up a storm.

Last night I made chicken fryed up my way mushrooms, sage dressing, and a cherry pie. It took me over an hour too clean up the kitchen. I had flour every where from coating the chicken and mushrooms. You have to be fast once the cooking oil gets hot. You want it all too come out about the same time.

Hope you all are having a good day. Roz

OK so it is hump day.

Since you all like my food. Just thought I would throw in some more food. Enjoy. LOL

Can't you just smell the bacon? Yum. Can't you just taste the strawberries? Yum. Are you hungry yet?

You all have a great day. Visit mommy Roz's dinner table any time.

Roz

Thanks Westy.

This is what we had for Christmas dinner. Nice steaks that Jim cooked.

Jim is feeling much better today. One of the doctors sent him some anitibiotices and they really seem to help him a lot. So I am happy. He is not going to get away from me that easy. LOL

Thanks too Westy for all of her help. I know so many of us are so glad not too have lost those we care about. So a big cheer for Westy.

Now on to other things that need to be done. Roz

Good Grief and little cat nips batman.

Here I am stumbling around all over the internet trying to find you all. It seems like a lot of you have settled here at blogger.

I do have to laugh at how slow I can be when it comes to do these things. I still plan on keeping the other journal. I think this will be a good way for me to learn.

Believe it or not in some ways this has been fun. Like a treasure hunt of sorts. Only the treasure is all of you.

Roz

45 years and counting.

45 years ago today on a sunny Jan. day I got married. I still remember when the minister said I now pronounce you man and wife. Ithought oh hell what have I got myself into now. What I got myself into was a journey down lifes path with a man. Who at times I could have pulled out a pistol and shot. Other times I only felt love that just filled me too the brim.

So how does a person stay married 45 years? First off you just get up every day and live life. You learn too take the good with the bad and enjoy the good, and make the bad go away. So here I am after all of these years. With two boys, and a man who tells me just about every day that he loves me. I don't have a clue as too why he does, but he keeps showing up at the dinner table everyday. So I guess I might as well keep him. I haven't run into any other men I want too keep around. So I guess that is how you stay married.

Roz

New Year, New Day

Another busy day. Meet my son at the doctor's then took him back too the place he lives. Of course we had to stop on the way back. That is OK.

I plan to watch a couple of movies that I rented and make chile tonight. Outside of that I am simply trying to rest up after all of the holidays. Plus just getting through everyone's ill health etc. Seems like the holidays bring that stuff on.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Roz

My Christmas Present.

This is our new pup. Her name is Bree and she is about the same size as our Sassy. Also so sweet just like Sassy. We got her at the animal shelter. She gets along with Sassy really well. They are so much alike in so many ways.

Yes she has our hearts just like Sassy. We just could not help falling in love with her.

Roz