VA day

We spent most of the afternoon at the VA. Jim saw his prostrate cancer doctor. Looks like things are going good with that one. Now to see about the big one and how it is doing. I am tired and have rented three movies. I am going to just zone out and watch someone else act crazy, fall in love, and shot people. LOL Nothing like a good movie to get your mind off of things.

I have to go over and see Ted tomorrow. Then maybe I will get some yard work done. I need to mow the back yard. Jim is out on the front porch enjoying the late afternoon sun and fresh air. He likes to watch people slow down and look at his flowers. The roses are doing great this year.

Roz

Radiation Treatments done.

Jim did his last radiation treatment today. They gave him a Certificate for completing the treatments. The doctor still can't get over how Jim has surivored all of his cancers. The blood cancer should have killed him years ago. Maybe he won't have too do the chem-o for the lung cancer. I hope that he doesn't because he needs to do treatments for the blood cancer. We will see what happens now.

It is cool, damp and rainy here in KC.

Roz

Holiday over.

Another Memorial Day weekend over for another year. We didn't do much as Jim really didn't feel very well. He took his catheter out and had a hard time peeing. So we had to go too the ER last night and have one put back in for him. That took a couple of hours, but he was able too sleep most of the night. Plus my bonous was that I also got to sleep. Two more radiation treatments then on too other treatments.

It is rainy here, but what one would call a lovely spring day. My flowers are all in bloom and I am happy. Jim says I have the best window view of the house here with my computer. He is right as I can see on first glance a bush full of pink roses out one window, and out the other more blooming flowers. Not much else to say.

Roz

Resting today.

I am sore all over today. This last week I have been working to get the yard back in shape. Plus do the usual running that needs to be done. I feel like I am starting to get things back in order, but I still have a ways to go.
Jim has two more radiation treatments. We see his cancer doctor Thrusday. Then maybe we will know what we are going to do. I am going to ask for a visiting nurse to come and check Jim our at least once or twice a week. The girl across the street said I could have my CNA in about eight weeks. I see that is maybe a good idea, but don't know how too fit classes in with everything else I have to do. That is something that I never thought about and if I did should have done it sometime ago. I have two years of college so I don't think it would be all that hard for me. Hope everyone is doing well.

Roz

New Computer

I just got my new computer this morning. So I am back on line. My son and his girlfriend have moved out. Jim is doing better, and my younger son is back at the home. Everything is going much better.

I have been spending a lot of time out doors gardening. I have a lot of catching up to do, but it is starting to look a whole lot better. I also have been getting my house back in order. I still have some of my son's things, but he is suppose to come over and get them this weekend. So I should be able to put things in a better place. Hope all of you are doing well.

Roz

Back online

I got my new computer today. Finally I am back on line. Just a short update. My older son and his girlfriend are now moved out. Jim is doing pretty well on his treatments. The doctor is surprised at how well he is doing.

I am busy with doing yard work and I have lots to do in that area. The flowers are just beautiful this year. So I am out doors a lot. Hope every one is well and I can catch up on all you.

Roz

Bags

The one thing Jim didn't want was a bag on his leg, but somethings you can't do anything about. So yesterday they gave him one and for the first time in weeks he slept all night. No more get out of my way bathroom trips. Plus I do think he is feeling better and less pain.

My house guest will be gone in a day or two. I am really looking forward to it. My younger son is doing better and is going back home in the morning. So I am hoping by this time next week. Most of my problems well have gone away or at least be under control.

Yesterday was younger son's Birthday. I went to visit and took him his gifts which was mostly clothes. He is one who loves clothes. So for the moment he is happy.

Roz

Grinding my Teeth.

I ordered a new computer yesterday. It should be here at the end of the month. Which means because my son is taking his computer. I will be without one for a week or so. That is alright as I am eager for them too get all of this stuff out of my house. From the plans I have heard it sounds slow. I am trying to resist the urge to start throwing things into the street. I want my house back really bad. You know the old saying about company smelling after three days.

We are still trying to work things out for Jim. He is out at the VA trying to get the help he needs. I hope the person he is counting on does not let him down.

Roz

Emotions and other things.

Folks it has been a very hard week. Jim is now back home, but with all of the stuff going on. I am tired. The older son is too move this weekend. The younger son is going back to the group home Wednesday. Everyone is moving along and maybe going to do better.

I am emotional and can't seem to get it under control. The smallest things now can send me into a tail spin. I keep finding my self clamping my mouth shut and taking deep breaths. I have no patients with others at this point. I handle things pretty well as long as you don't add on to what is already a difficult time. Just don't rock the boat, because I am likely to push you over board. Because it is me. I use my bad temper too keep me going. It is the way I am. Clear the decks because here I come. Get out of my way. I have a job to do.

Roz

Mother's Day

Jim is back home and that is good for a lot of reasons. I hope all of the mother's out there are having a great Mother's Day.

Roz

Jim update.

I called the patient advocate this morning and told her that I did not appreciate the way I was treated yesterday. I understand the ER not wanting to have interfering family. That is not my job. My job is to inform them of the medications that I might have just given him and what I have observed. When anyone is in pain they often are not able to explain things very well. I know Jim better than anyone. My job is to inform, support, calm him, and too understand what needs to be done. I do not appreciate some nurse asking him if he wants me there, after he has asked for me several times. I didn't know that he had asked for me. So I came home knowing nothing and wondering what the hell was going on. Too many of these guys have no one. Stop running the wives off who are welling to help.

I saw him today and he is much better. We will see what needs to be done here in the next few days.
Roz

Jim

Jim came home from his radiation treatsments yesterday in a lot of pain. So much pain that we made our way out too the ER at the VA. He is now in the Intensive care unit. He insisted that I go home to rest last night. I sure didn't get much rest as sleep was not going to come. I called this morning and they told me that his pain is under control. I didn't get to speak too him, but they said they would tell him I called.

So what happens now? I have no idea.

Roz

Younger son.

As if my life is not crazy enough. My younger son called this morning sounding more strange than usual. He is the one with a mental illness. I thought things were not going right so I called the home he is living in. They were already calling the doctor and trying to find out what to do about him. He also started to say things about killing himself. So now he is over at the ER being evaluated. This could mean a stay in the hospital until we can get him back on the right track. Thank God I have these people working with my son. They have taken a lot off of my shoulders by doing the right things for him. We will see what happens at the end of the day.

I do get some what cranky with things. Things will turn around I am sure. Than I can relax a bit.

Roz

The VA

We spent most of the afternoon at the VA yesterday. Jim's blood pressure was way too low. He was told by the doctor at Reserch that it could be the medication he is taking for the prostrate. Needless to say we spent a lot of hours not getting anything done. They did say they would try to send us a new blood pressure cuff. The one we have keeps showing error error on it and I have changed the batteries. It still doesn't work right.

Good thing that I got so much done yesterday morning. Today I am just tired as I had one of those nights of mine. I tripped and fell again the other day and I am feeling the effects. I just got too learn to pick up my feet. Then again the dog next door jumping up and growling right next too me. Might have had something to do with my falling down. He surprised me.

Roz

Better today.

I have decided to get over my mad about things and just get on with things. It takes me awhile sometimes to adjust to new circumstances. Poor Jim listens to me and tries to make me slow down and take one thing at a time. The doctors are surprised that he has done so well with all of these different illness. They just don't understand why he isn't dead yet. I know, but most people wouldn't understand. He is a determind soul. He stays for me.

Need to get going the birds are screaming that they are hunger and need my attention. Could someone tell me how to keep them from pooping in their water. yuk. I hate cleaning the water dishes.

Roz

Snowed under.

I feel over whelmed by all that I have to get done. I also am pretty sore from trying to get things done. When you are my age cleaning gutters, planting flowers, cleaning the house and all of the other things one must get done is hard. I now realize just how much Jim did and trying to do both our jobs is hard. He is trying to do more too help. Which fills me full of guilt for not being able to take care of all of these things. I would pay someone to do some of this stuff, but Jim has his pride. So here I am.

The young guy across the street came over and mowed the front lawn and bank for us. I was so relieved because that is a very steep bank. I have too keep telling myself one thing at a time. You can only do one thing at a time.

Roz