It is going to happen.

My son and his girlfriend are finally moving out. I can hardly wait too have my home back. One more burden off my shoulders. I am very excited about their leaving.

Jim has been coughing up blood. He was told that this is normal and that he wants to get that stuff out. So I am not as worried about the blood as I was before. He is tired but doing pretty good. We both think the chemo treatment will be the worst part and they are at least a couple of months down the road.

It is sunny here today and has brighten both our moods. Another good thing coming my way is an old friend is coming to visit soon. I look forward to seeing her and her husband.

Roz

A week or more.

I have been busy as you can well guess. Jim is pretty tired from a week of treatments. He has the weekend off from them. As for me I am trying to keep everything going. Doing all of his stuff and all of my stuff. Which keeps me pretty busy now that spring is here once again.

I spent yesterday buying plants and putting them into the ground. I am pretty pleased with the results. Now when I walk out the front door it looks really pretty. I could not for some reason resist pink flowers. LOL So I have pink geraniums, and impatients. I will try to get a picture taken with they really start to fill things out.

My son and his girlfriend are moving out the 15th of May. Which makes me happy. More room and privacy for Jim and myself.

Roz

Tuesday

Jim is off having his treatment. He wanted to just go by himself, and even though I was some what worried about that. I stayed here at home. I know it is important for him to be in charge of all of this medical thing. I will of course be here if he needs me. He has the cell phone and only needs to call me. I am sure that as time passes that I may have to be more pro-active, but for now it is important for him to feel like he has some control over things.

Instead of going I have been feeding and caring for the birds and doing the usual house work. Also taking a bit of time to roam around here on the computer. I hope to get outside and do some work.

Roz

Monday

I have been trying to get the house cleaned up. Jim will be starting his treatments tomorrow. So I don't want to be worrying about things being a mess here at home.

I did get to plant somethings Saturday and do some things out in the yard. I also ran over and took my younger son out for awhile. So I have been busy. I also have found all of the stuff to get the license plates for the truck. Now all I have to do is sit down and fill out the paper work.

Sunday I gave the two who live with me a lecture. They needed it as they were getting out of hand. Funny Jim got up and left it all too me. He said he would let me handle those two. LOL I hope I got somethings through too them. Not much else going. It is sunny and warm but windy. With gust of winds hitting 40 miles an hr. So that is keeping me from doing anything out side.

Roz

So it goes.

We saw a lung specialist today at the VA. He showed us the pictures of the lung cancer. It is about three inches across and is blocking part of Jim's airway. It also has collasped part of his lung. We will do radiation first and then a couple of weeks after that when we are done with the radiation. We will do the chemo. They don't think that Jim can hold up too both at the same time. Bad news is that we found out this is stage 3. For those who don't know cancer goes from stage 1 to stage 4. The higher the number the worst it is suppose to be. Not good.

He is determined to beat it. Do I think he can? Who knows? He has surpised me and the doctors more often than not. So we will see.

Roz

What too say?

Can't think of much that I care to write about. Jim is too see the doctor Friday. We know that radiation is going to be one treatment, and some chemo. I will of course go with him too this doctor and learn what I need too learn.

With these things one never really knows what to expect. Each person is different and the outcome can be good or bad. He saw his mental health person today. She gave him a number for the suicide hot line. He was insulted that she would think that he would take his own life. He said why bother killing himself since they seem to be doing a pretty good job of it for him. He is bitter and I understand.

They are always suprised that I am still with him after so many years and all that has happen in our lives. Am I the only one who thinks marriage is till death do us part? Seems that way.
Roz